oh well..
the problem has always been there
just tt each time it surfaces, we thought we solved it.
or rather, we thought we could.

but whats left, its just us running away
subconsciously.

i hate running, i dont like running at all
but why do i find myself in a marathon
constantly running non stop?

i've a bad habit.
forgetting things, putting them behind
waking up the next morning, telling myself
everything is fine.
its a brand new day.
don't think back, think ahead.
and then i carry on life with a smile.

but i knew all along
i had to be the strong one
to pull everything together.
i have to stop escaping from reality
and make a turn back.
but how?

i need the courage.

we are trying hard not let things fall apart.
we all know that.
cos it pains us all to see each other tear.

angel, teach me how to pull everything back.
i'm exhausted from all the running.
show me the way.

for the past week i felt like i was losing my way
not being able to stay focused to do the things that i thought i should be doing
not being myself, i ended up spending a little too freely

i always thought there isn't enough time at all
juggling so many things at the same time

or perhaps,
i'm trying to achieve too many things
not wanting to give up any opportunities
or any new experiences

maybe i'm trying too hard to achieve too many things
and maybe that explains my behavior
i dont noe.
sometimes i felt like i didn't have time to breathe
but yet i didn't want to waste my time breathing too much.
weird.

i kinda have a little phobia returning to school after being away for such a long period of time
afraid of the pressure, the changes, the failure of improvements.
uncertainties linger about here n there
keeps me pondering about loads of stuff

well, i guess i should treat it as a new beginning
afterall, its still the beginning of the last year in sch.

may there be angels to lead my way if i happen to be losing my direction along the journey.

to fill up the sense of hollowness, i went on a nature trail therapy.
n a sunny saturday morning.
getting close to the earth on feet. o

the southern ridges.
it was a forest walk from alexandar area to mount faber
through the Alexandra Arch, Forest Walk and Hendersons Waves.
of cos we didn't complete the 9km walk, we prolly just melt into liquid if we did tt.

snapshots here.

henderson waves is really a nice place to hang out.

with its very unique wavy architecture, the scenery there is pretty

and despite the heat, its quite breezy under those wavy shelters

makes people wana stop walking once you sit down

if you love the sun and the nature, u shouldn't miss a place like this

“The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again.” ~Charles Dickens

thanks guys, for all the footprints left.

i had a little escape from the city life with ape over the last few days to experience life ON the sea. haha. it was a great place in kelong acheh, malaysia. not only was the environment peaceful and traquil, the chance to get really close up to nature is awesome. 

i was really fortunate to be able to go to the trip with my company. haha i was blessed to be showered with love and care from all these big brothers and sisters. fishing was one of our main activities there, and my first time trying it. getting a fish on the hook is not easy, but getting a fish out of the hook is even harder. especially when the fish is alive, jumpy and slimy, the hook has to be removed slowly so tt it won't hurt the fish so much. but even so, we still enjoyed the labour of the good catch after that. LOL. oh well, tt's life.

there were plenty of team building games that we played do some brain exercises. pictionary, creating products out of 50-cent worth materials, balloon dog n bone, survival obstacle..blahblah. and i had a great time swinging on the hammock that one of them brought. (if i have space in my room, i want to put one. haha) 

the sunset was amazing, just like an animated painting. the colors the the evening sky was beyond description. sunrise too, was indescribable. it was my first time seeing the sun rising and the colors of the sky brightening. i was trying my best to capture every moment of it.

food was good too, with fish served everymeal. haha but they are really fresh. there was even crabs, prawns and fried calamari! i just love the nasi lemak that was served for breakfast.

we had a chance to sway out in a boat to a near by island. jus like a survival island where behind the beach are tall bushes and forest of trees. i managed to find some really pretty seashells to add on to my collection. and being able to watch the sunset from there was, speechless..

many a times there were moments i felt i had superpowers to freeze our times there. i really enjoyed myself there with the company of people that can go crazy playing with. i didn't want any of those moments slip through my fingers so quickly. but we all know, we just cant hold it back. all i could do to console myself was to snap, snap, snap and snap.

so here are the beautiful moments to share with you guys.