hi pals...
thanx alot..mayb i reali need sumtime 2 get used to dis...i tink jh's gt a point..dere are times where old friends will leave and new friends will come... partings are part n parcel of life...i jus haf 2 accept life as it is..there's nth i could do ritex...a big thank you to all of u 4 all ur advises...promise i'll b alright kaex..giv mi sumtime...sorry 4 the short post cos dun reali haf the mood to blog..

Perfect - simple plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurst when you disapprove all doing

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand

l o n e l i . t r a v e l

went hm 2dae alone..was lookin 4 sum1 2 walk outa sch wif..obviously there isn't ani..*sigh* tot of lotsa tings on my wae hm..bout evryting tt happened dis yr n last..mayb cos of all the probs or wadsoeva tings..i teared..dotx ritex...*sigh* i oso dunoe y...i miss rp daes...i miss rp daes so so much n i miss the times we were 2gather...ppl used 2 c us 2gather all the time...u c her..u will c mi...u c mi..she will b beside mi...but now is totally different lerx...*sigh* i dunnoe wad 2 sae..hardly even tok...sumtimes i wonder if i stand a place in her...lost sho many tings dis yr...especially frens...close ones...3 of them...realised tt there's no one who reali cares..isit cos of my attitude or personality or there's sth reali wrong wif mi? i dun reali noe...i can hide my feeling frm evryone...yes..evryone..my frens n family...but i can't hide it frm myself...i've saed b4 i'm living not 4 myself, nt 4 my family but 4 my frens...and now i'm struggling wif life...living dae by dae...looking forward 2 the events in sch...like now 2 the esplanade performance..aft tt will haf 2 c wad else i can look forward to...if not 4 frens...i wuld haf died long ago...nw tt dey r leaving one by one...nth else i could do...*sigh* dun haf the right 2 wan her 2 noe how i feel...its been months sinced i last toked 2 her on fone...n anione else...mayb xuan was the last...being wif sum company which i dun belong to feels so..stupid...i dun like the life now n i hate the life now...even if i'm writing it here...i believe noone will care...probably tinkin its a fake..but wadeva...everyting depends on whether i can accept dis life 4 mi...

if u tink i need a shrink, u r right

l i f e l e s s . c e a s e d t o l i v e

m a k e m y d r e a m s c o m e t r u e . i w a n a l e a v e d i s w o r l d

love it...rox...

i chose the selfish wae

after countless dilemma... ...

no matter how much i can chose,

i will always lose sumting sumhow... ...

one. hurt yrself and make em happy.

two. shield yourself from any hurt.

a natural person will always chose one.

but how many people can u please?

you please one, u hurt others... ...

u please a few, u hurt more... ...

thus indirectly u realise tt u are hurting those u luv,

those u care for...

u hurt urself by feeling stretched, lost

thus dis time i closed myself up, chose the selfish wae out

i may hurt others, but i will protect myself.

i noe i will regret my move

will end up hurting myself

will b the person choosing wrong path of life

but wads there for mi?

wads life coming to in the end?

how much can we get from life?

i no longer care

or mayb i do

but i will try not to care at least.

-[xy]-

hApPiE bElAtEd aPriL fOoL'S dAe!!

hahx...yesterdae fun lorx...can sae our klass is the most steady n pro one..;p
hahx...realli...fers ting in the morn i go sch alreadi kana tricked by ppl liaox lo...chiatyin told mi wad she stead wif sum guy den beginning 2 regret...silly mi...i actualli believed lo...dotx...hahx...den aft tt ms soh period realli fun lox..hahx...we r called the proscos we switch klass wif cr in the middle of her 2 periods...hahz...our vv good actress dearest cy tol her tt she need bandage den gota go dwn sick bay lo..act we dun expect her 2 br cy dwn...tot she will ask a pupil 2 go lo...but she did!!hahx...the moment she step out of klass we all giggled den ran out 2 cr lo...hahx...den quickly switched klass lo...vv fun..hahx..she we bent down pretendin doin work in cr...den mr soh came...cr amath tcher..he one look into dl den noe we switch klass lo...pro sia..den came 2 cr ask us go back...budden we sha jiao..ask him wait 4 ms soh come bk fers..hahx...he agreed..rox lo...ms soh came bk walk past cr but din suspect aniting...but she steped into dl dey klass stand...den chuang bang ler..cos 2nd period where gt ned klass stand...she was asked 2 look 4 mr soh hu was hiding at the bk door lo...she saed hope he's a handsome guy budden lata told us she regreted sae tt..=p heex...ms soh rox lo...den 3 cheers 4 her....

aft tt was ms ang..hahx..she vv paranoid lo...tot sum ppl switch klass..den went up 2 yinyin sae she dun look familiar...lolx...aft tt she writing on board den we all move front n front...shen she turn bk we r right in front of her lo...hahx...she was laughing..aft tt took all her markers n hid it lo...she went round borrowing but cannot get one...den we put bk again...ahahx...she gave tt kinda -_-''' look...hahx...aft tt told her we gt a performance 4 her...den did 'serds' kallang wave...hahx...so farni lox...tink she enjoyed herself too lo...hahx...

dL RoX oN....37 hEaRtS oNe sOuL